I have a calculus test tomorrow. It's over too much info. I'm gonna fail, so I don't know why I am going to take it. My fucking parents are coming in this weekend. They are prying too much into my business.
A person on eBay stiffed me for 50 bucks, which I needed to pay for something today. I wrote a check that balanced. Not only do I owe 65 bucks for this thing, I owe an addition 20 for the returned check. I 85 bucks fucked over, and I have 25 bucks left. Not to mention I have 2 15 dollar checks that may or may not be cashed. I need 150 of my 175 bucks left to buy football tickets or else my parents will be pissed (which = financial penalties).
My friend is a fucking lazy bitch and didn't go today, even though I told him I HAD to go today. I'm going tomorrow, with or without him. I don't give a shit about football. My parents just want me to go to be "active" in the "correct" group.
My mom calls. Bitches at me that I need to get good grades. She tells me once a week...same fucking thing. I don't care. I don't care what my grades are anymore because I have been in school for fucking 15 years of my life, and I'm 19 now. It's almost like fucking slavery. I HAVE to go here. You forget, they force legally me to give them access to my personal accounts. And legally, since they pay for my college, I have no say. They control everything. If I say no, I can walk. But I'll be homeless on the street.
So my mom yelled at me, yelled at me more. My dad calls. Yells at me for the same fucking thing. In the background, my mom, bitch as usual, is STILL bitching to me from across the room about the same thing.
I honestly don't care. I hate school. I don't care if I fail or pass. I do not care what I do in life anymore. I like having fun. I'm sick of work. I don't give a shit if you have to "work" in order to "play". Why? Who says? Fuck that, I'll do what I want. So what, I'll end up not getting a good job? Oh well, as long as I fucking have a roof over my head, a bed, some food, and a computer/tv/something electrical and is fun...I'm all set.
I'm sick of the way my life is shaping out to be. So I don't fucking care about anything anymore. I have a calc test tomorrow...and I think I won't even study...walk in, and write in big fat fucking letters "I DO NOT CARE ABOUT YOUR STUPID FUCKING CLASS. MATH IS NOT FOR ME. I DO NOT WISH TO LEARN IT. TEACH IT TO SOMEBODY WHO CARES."
Same with my other classes. I DO NOT CARE ABOUT MAKING DATABASES. WHO CARES? FUCKING GET SOMEBODY ELSE TO DO IT, IT'S GAY ASS.
SAME WITH SOCIOLOGY. AND MACROECONOMICS. AND MY BUSINESS CLASS.
THEY ARE POINTLESS AND BORING.
I really feel like...stealing somebody's credit card...filling my car with gas, buying a shit load of groceries and stuff...and like fucking driving off and not come back.
I do not like this. I want life to be more exciting. Life is boring and sucks right now. Not in a "depressed" way. NO. It's more "What the fuck is going to be worthwhile to do? It's the same thing over and over".
So, there. Karma, Bitch. To everyone.