Imagine you're 11 years old, never get out of your parents house because they don't believe in public school, and you think videogames are pretty neat, so you find out about something called Zelda Classic which is just about to release it's own editor called "Zquest".

Imagine years of internet drama as you grow up and are awkwardly open about most facets of your life because you have no one face to face to talk to, because you still don't get out of your parents' house during that time. Also, imagine an intensely dead-serious romantic relationship with someone 7 years your senior who about a year later goes crazy and sets fire to the home they're staying in, and you hear about it only via internet and a scanned local newspaper clipping.

Then imagine that, when you finally turn 18, you leave behind your parents' house (and state, and part of the country...), move far away, and start an almost new life with one other person you knew from all the way back when. To the degree you have an internet social life, it relocates and drifts around to new venues.

Imagine some stuff goes wrong, your health goes sideways in your early 20s, an ER visit and a catheter is involved at one point, and for years you pretty much forget all about that internet forum that stood in for all the awkwardness of high school most people get. But years later, when you're 24, something nags at your memory, and you remember Zquest was really pretty cool, and check in and find out holy crap, all kinds of stuff works now, there's a working item editor and enemy editor and cool scripting tricks and whoa, way cool.

So basically that's me at the moment. I don't want to stir up any old drama, and honestly it's one of the main reasons I haven't been coming here... that's just unpleasant, and I have better things to do with my mortal lifespan. Also, I've become intensely anti-social in the past few years, basically only talking to the people I currently live with, or one very old friend, or an ex/also very close friend I got to know after I stopped posting here. I don't even talk to those people all that much, proportionately.

(Also, my condolences and respects to DarkNation's wife and all his friends; I just found out about that, but decided not to reply in a months-old thread better left to rest. He was a great guy, and ZC wouldn't be what it is without him.)

So, what am I up to these days? Well, not a whole lot. I make some weird stuff over on deviantart. I have trouble squatting (as in, if I try, my legs have horrible pain and I tend to fall over), I sleep as much as 12 hours a day sometimes (unintentionally), and am kind of a mess. On the upside, I'm also finally in a relationship that I think is healthy and going fairly well, but that's a little more private so I won't get into it here. I've pretty much lost contact with everyone who ever came here but Sarria (previously known by KingArthur and Skeeve22), who remains one of my best friends but doesn't come here anymore either.

Also, I'm still agnostic, still a woman (but perhaps not the shiningest example of transition stories given my odd health issues and self-sufficiency failings), and other things you might expect. My formative/teenage years weren't perfectly representative of me and I'm embarrassed of it, but roots are roots. I try to avoid poiltical talk because it's usually awkward and I'm usually in over my head, and it's not that hard to guess which way I lean anyway. But I'm not really here to talk about any of those things too much most likely.

And... that's about it. Also I've been poking at ZC 2.5 lately and maaaaaaaaan that is awesome. Maybe even more material to file for the "makes my inner past 12 year old all giddy" list. Oh, and I'm hugely fond of Sailor Moon (mainly the anime) these days. And have an interest in the Warhammer 40K setting of all things, due to tabletop RPG stuff I've been involved with. Still fond of good old Ken Akamatsu, as well, though I honestly got behind on Negima and have yet to catch up on that. I've also seen every episode of the three live action Stargate franchises except "Gauntlet" (the SGU cancellation finale), which is on my to-do list somewhere. (I'm most fond of Daniel Jackson, personally.)

I don't know if I'm going to post here again after this or what, but, like Doc Brown taping together Marty's note after 30 years, I figured...

Basically: if it's going to be hoary old drama or name-calling ("fag" etc) or whatever, I'm probably not gonna bother posting. And, if I just don't get around to it, I might also not post anyway. But, there are a few old friends and other acquaintances it'd be nice to catch up with, so, we'll see.

Also, I must admit to having done a very halfway job of checking to see if there were new forum rules I'm unaware of. If there's something I should know, please feel free to point out the obvious, and my apologies if I mess up somewhere. I'm greatly amused that "favorite Zelda game" is now a required field though.

So yeah. Hi maybe?