I'm not dead guys and girls.

[goKi]

But i don't think i will be back very often for a while.

The main reason i've ceased to post on AGN at all is because i've moved into a new house with two of my friends. I've not hooked up the internet because my housemates have trouble even paying their rent some weeks, so i guarantee i'd be paying the entire bill for the rest of the time i lived there until we can reach a compromise. I'm working on getting some gear together to convert a satellite dish on our roof to accept wireless internet and steal internet from all the companies/hotspots on the main street at once, to give me super-fast internet for free. But to be honest, i'm having too much fun not being on the internet to waste a weekend setting it up.

My advice to everyone who spends more than half an hour a day on the internet.. Get out and enjoy your life, you only live once. In six months i've transformed myself. I used to be an overweight (264lb at most), depressed social retard. I've gotten out there, met a bunch of cool new friends, learnt to dress properly, taken my fat ass to the gym (220lb and freefalling. Everyone only thinks i look about 190lb, so really i look good for my weight. Even though i've still got a long way to go, it's nice to have girls you went to high school with approaching you and telling you how hot you look now.) But most of all, i've developed the confidence to approach and meet anyone i want. That means the really awesome guys i always wanted to hang out with, and the super hot girl over the other side of the club. It wasn't long ago that i'd be forced to settle for girls that needier and more emotionally fucked up than i was. I'm still fine-tuning my 'game', but i've got no problems getting most average looking girl's phone numbers, and getting a date or two.

I'm sure that a few people from here (I'm thinking Glitch, Mooie and Goat) will be proud to know that i went out drinking last night, breaking three and a half years of being too insecure in myself to get off my ass and have some fun. I tell you, drinking actually kicks ass when you're not too introverted to use having no inhibitions to your advantage. When i get some cash together, i'm going to head up to Vegas (with this girl i met at who has a time-share in a condo on the strip) and have a drink with you guys.

Next time i'm in, i'll be sure to bring a few before and after photos. I'm no stunner, but hell, there's a huge difference.

Anyone who wants to do more with themselves but think they can't needs to look at me, i'm living proof. Work hard for anything and you'll get it.

Peace,

goKi.

[DarkDragon]

Glad to hear you're doing well, goki.

I just got back from a party myself, but as a mathematician/computer scientist, am left thinking I've permanently fucked up my social life beyond all repair. Got any advice?

[ShadowTiger]

Holy crap, goKi! You've done it! You've gone the mile and accomplished the geek's (Second) Dream. I may be overplaying that statement, but it's still quite the achievement. I wish you the absolute very best of luck achieving a life there.

I just got back from a party myself, but as a mathematician/computer scientist, am left thinking I've permanently fucked up my social life beyond all repair. Got any advice?

I know that I'm looking at the great wall of internet between us, but your posts and posting style conveys nothing but awesomeness and intelligence. (Two seemingly contrasting terms, but they're not. o.o ) If all that's standing in your way is courage or social awkwardness, I think you're already on a pretty damn straight road to success if all you need is to realize that you've already got everything in your head that it takes.

It's actually not so tough. I have a major speech impediment that you'd think would make social conversing really awkward, but after a while, you learn that everyone worth speaking to isn't nearly as shallow and superficial as you'd think they would be. Anyone who would only see such an impediment as an issue is the one who has the issues. So don't worry; all you have to do is look for the right people and say the right things, and they'll do the rest. ^^.

BTW, Happy 4,000th post, DarkDragon. Very.

[mrz84]

Enjoy your fun goki, and we'll await your eventual return. Good luck with the rent thing!

[AlexMax]

Glad to hear you're doing well, goki.

I just got back from a party myself, but as a mathematician/computer scientist, am left thinking I've permanently fucked up my social life beyond all repair. Got any advice?

My two cents, you're pretty much fucked.

Don't worry though, you're in good company.

[Lilith]

goki, you look SO HOT now.

[Prrkitty]

goKi!!! WOW!! Good for you honey!! The "tone" of your post is filled with the confidence you apparently have in yourself. WOOHOO!! Extra congrats on the weight loss.

Next time I talk to cyberbaby I'll be sure to give her your cell phone number. :)

Love you honey...

[AtmaWeapon]

Congrats on "evolving" to a "higher form" but I have some concerns. The first part is the general "hahahah nerds you guys are never going to be happy" attitude which indicates you are pretty much becoming the type of guy I can't stand. I mean, I'm not saying there's anything inherently better about my lifestyle, but getting smashed with a bunch of guys so I can enter short, meaningless relationships with random women who I am only physically attracted to doesn't really float my boat when compared to staying at home and seeming like a nerd.

I appreciate the advice but I tried that lifestyle one time and I went from a depressed nerd to the depressed lowest-rung-in-the-popular-kids-ladder socialite, then decided it was a lot easier to be a depressed nerd (and it came with a feeling of self-righteousness too!).

Also read this and pretend it was posted by someone else:

i've moved into a new house with two of my friends. I've not hooked up the internet because my housemates have trouble even paying their rent some weeks, so i guarantee i'd be paying the entire bill for the rest of the time i lived there until we can reach a compromise. I'm working on getting some gear together to convert a satellite dish on our roof to accept wireless internet and steal internet from all the companies/hotspots on the main street at once, to give me super-fast internet for free. But to be honest, i'm having too much fun not being on the internet to waste a weekend setting it up.
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Think long and hard about the implications of "sharing the bill" with people who "have trouble paying the bill". Such friendships usually end in tears.

AlexMax I am certain you will agree this looks like a good "first a little backstory" element to a forumId=1 thread with the e/n tag amirite?

[Fiyerstorm]

lmao @ Atma geeking out at the end of his post!

I'm honestly happy for you goKi but uh yeah.. I balance my internet relationships with my ''irl'' relationships because I choose to be like this. I may feel like I'm a ''social outcast'' at times but I know that if there's nobody I can go to in person, I can always rely on my friends that I have all over the world (lol internet), or visa versa.

Point is, I feel I am happier knowing that I can have options for ''different types'' of social leisure. I wouldn't choose one over the other cause there's a lot of people I've grown close with..online and offline and I wouldn't give them up just because I feel like I don't need for fall back on just one because of my emotions. :V

And I agree with Alex, living with friends who have financial problems usually ends up with a bad fall out but I hope for the best for you, goKster. :) <33333

[Beldaran]

I'm not depressed. I go to the gym. I have sex very frequently. I wear nice clothes. I post here.