I'm not invincible

[bigjoe]

Stress ... stress , it adds up , its like my mind is under a pressure cooker , I wouldnt be surprised if it were on fire in there. Things add up. Trying and failing to fix a controller for two hours was like striking the match. The fire that burnt was me having to install ME just to get my system working , and messing it up worse .... finding my ex girlfriends ring I had was like hitting the gasoline ... and my mom coming to me crying , painfully reminding me that my grandmother isnt well and may pass soon was like catching the prairie on fire ....

I dont know what to do. Im not a wall. Im not perfect. I need help! Ive talked with people and ... and they just fuel debate rather then helping mostly.

What on Earth can I do?

Note: while although this would be suited for Rock Bottom, I aim to get more attention than I would from there ...

[Zeo]

Why don't we take this over to the KTC and yell at each other for a while, that ought make you feel better..........

[bigjoe]

IF I wanted to yell I would have posted it there to begin with I just want someone to relate to me. Thas all ...

[obi]

I am reciving a lot of stress from my GCSE exhams, not as much stress as you but I'll try to relate if you want.:)

[Zeo]

Well , you want advice, here's mine, get your butt OFF the comp, and go see your Grandma.............

[bigjoe]

Originally posted by Zeo
Well , you want advice, here's mine, get your butt OFF the comp, and go see your Grandma.............

Im going to when we go down there next time. The fear of it still hurts ...

[Cronic]

I feel ya BJ... in fact I once had a nervous breakdown while trying to fix the stupid anolog setup on an N64 controller, and shit like that will set off any life situation.

Stroll on through it bj, and whatever you do don't give up on AG and get yourself banned k

[obi]

We are with you every step of the way man, take your pain ut on us.
err, wait, nat in that way man....
No really.

[Hermit]

Relax joe, you're not alone (as cliched as that sounds). But even old cliches and old sayings have some turth to them, otherwise they wouldn't be used so much.

Your pain is shared by others, although perhaps not identical in situation. For years I've lived alone, both literally and figuratively. Kinda makes it obvious why I chose the name "Hermit" doesn't it.

Over the years I've had to deal with alot of things similiar to what you're going through now. 2 days ago, some drunken fool decided to drive down my street and ended up landing his car in my yard. Not really a big deal as far as the yard and the trees in it go and such, but the thing was... my only companion that has lived with me for the past 5 years was outside frollocking around, my precious lil dachsund weiner dog Chelsea. You can only imagine the pain of having to bury her, walk around the place, not havin her wag her lil tail n smilin at ya wantin to play with you. Like I said before, since I live alone, I have nothing and am very depressed. I was looking for a picture of her to stick in this post, I'll keep looking...

As for the computer ordeals. My mother called me about 3 months or so ago crying. (Id never heard or seen her cry before, so you can imagine what that did to me) My little sister had apparently contracted an e-mail virus to her computer. She put so much into that PC i couldn't even being to tell you, from her typing dictations for doctors offices and such, to her vast organization of of folders for 10,000 or so emails she hadn't yet had a chance to browse through, to all her little cooking programs and recipes, the list could go on forever. I sat there staring at the screen listening to her cry outside as she swept the deck off, passing the time I suppose. I didn't want to reformat the entire hard drive and lose all her work, so I did the next best and most difficult thing. I re-installed just the Windows part of the hard drive. It took me 4 days straight to remake the registry, get all programs running and re-installed, her work back up and running. I'd gladly do it all over to see how happy she was when I told her everything was fixed :)

There are plenty of other things I'm sure I could discuss and tell you about, my grandfather passing away a few years back, my car won't run for shit, Columbia House sending billing agencies after me for money THAT I'VE ALREADY PAID! Bills, bills, bills... and to top it all off, more bills.

I don't have any answers for you, no one will. People deal with different situations the best they know how. What keeps me going is finding something I love doing and immursing myself in it. You guys probably think I'm just weird as much as I talk about music. It's my passion, I love it, I live for it, it's always there for me through good and bad, and always will be, and that my friend, makes me happy no matter what life throws my way :)

I feel your pain joe, it's alright man...

Cheerio

[bigjoe]

Nice of you, Darth Cronic, to share your experience. Feel less alone

And thanks Hermit , I beleive reading what youve read has set me straight and given me confidence. I guess helping your mother and sister like that must have brought you a sense of self worth. Maybe I should help someone. Really sorry about the dog though. Dont worry , she went to a better place...