Aegix Drakan
03-01-2014, 06:02 PM
Choo choo all aboard the depression hype train. >_>
Sooo....yeah, my life just took a turn for the awful.
First of all, I am now at the point where I absolutely need to drop the only university course I'm getting credit for this semester because the midterm was the most awful thing ever and there's no goddamn way I'm passing at this point.
And then, of course, this is just about the exact timing that my (now ex) GF takes to break up with me (on Friday)
We'd been together for 3 years. The reason she gave was that she hadn't been feeling the romance for a long long while, and while she really did want to try to bring it back because "I was the most perfect incredible person she knew", she just never felt it come back, no matter how hard she tried.
I'd noticed some points where things got a little bit "distant", but she always bounced back really quick, so I thought it was some school worries or something. Also, I haven't felt the "spark" I guess you coudl call it for a while, but I chalked it up to my naturally low libido, and I was satisfied with the emotional aspect so I didn't worry too much.
So yeah. We're still (probably) going to be friends (at least once I've gotten over the awkward phase), but it really hurts. Worst part is I can't exactly blame her, if she'd been having serious doubts for almost a year, and I can't blame a third party because there isn't one. I can't even blame myself, because she stressed that I had done everything perfectly and told me that it wasn't my fault she felt that way. So I've got a cracked heart and hurt feelings with no one to blame them on, not even myself.
Spent the day of the breakup drinking to numb the pain (I made sure not to overdo it) and talked with close friends over skype and had a friend come over, and I spend most of today being miserable, having the atypical breakdown (it seems my body really needed that, and not my mind, weirdly enough) and then recovering and playing nothing but persona 4 all day. And I'm going to a housewarming party that my best friends are hosting tomorrow, so it'll be good to see them in person and all that.
So...Yeah. Just lost the one part of my life I thought I had figured out. Feeling better since the incident, but still kinda a mess inside.
...Any tips from previous victims? (this was my first relationship, and I took it really slow because she didn't want to rush into things. No, we didn't get down at dirty at all, she was never ready to make that jump)
Sooo....yeah, my life just took a turn for the awful.
First of all, I am now at the point where I absolutely need to drop the only university course I'm getting credit for this semester because the midterm was the most awful thing ever and there's no goddamn way I'm passing at this point.
And then, of course, this is just about the exact timing that my (now ex) GF takes to break up with me (on Friday)
We'd been together for 3 years. The reason she gave was that she hadn't been feeling the romance for a long long while, and while she really did want to try to bring it back because "I was the most perfect incredible person she knew", she just never felt it come back, no matter how hard she tried.
I'd noticed some points where things got a little bit "distant", but she always bounced back really quick, so I thought it was some school worries or something. Also, I haven't felt the "spark" I guess you coudl call it for a while, but I chalked it up to my naturally low libido, and I was satisfied with the emotional aspect so I didn't worry too much.
So yeah. We're still (probably) going to be friends (at least once I've gotten over the awkward phase), but it really hurts. Worst part is I can't exactly blame her, if she'd been having serious doubts for almost a year, and I can't blame a third party because there isn't one. I can't even blame myself, because she stressed that I had done everything perfectly and told me that it wasn't my fault she felt that way. So I've got a cracked heart and hurt feelings with no one to blame them on, not even myself.
Spent the day of the breakup drinking to numb the pain (I made sure not to overdo it) and talked with close friends over skype and had a friend come over, and I spend most of today being miserable, having the atypical breakdown (it seems my body really needed that, and not my mind, weirdly enough) and then recovering and playing nothing but persona 4 all day. And I'm going to a housewarming party that my best friends are hosting tomorrow, so it'll be good to see them in person and all that.
So...Yeah. Just lost the one part of my life I thought I had figured out. Feeling better since the incident, but still kinda a mess inside.
...Any tips from previous victims? (this was my first relationship, and I took it really slow because she didn't want to rush into things. No, we didn't get down at dirty at all, she was never ready to make that jump)