AtmaWeapon
08-04-2003, 02:32 PM
The past 2 weeks have been pretty rough on me. I won't elaborate, but the kicker was when I stayed up until 3AM removing the Bugbear virus from my computer. When I tried to tell mom that morning what had happened and why I installed a virus scanner, she yelled at me and told me it was her computer and she could put a virus on it if she wanted. Whatever. I woke up this morning and found she had uninstalled the scanner. Whatever.
Anyway, sitting at this computer is no longer a pleasant experience for me. It means I have to sit close to the family room, which means I'm vulnerable to verbal attacks from my mother because I am close to her. We just went on a 3 day New Orleans vacation that she ruined because of a power trip. I'm about to leave for a 7-day trip to Ohio with my father. It's a trip I don't want to go on, but I have to because he'll be disappointed if I don't go. My girlfriend is pissed at me because I'll miss her first day of school as a senior, which I don't understand as I wouldn't have been able to go to school with her. Whatever. I'm spending all my time packing for college and praying that my mother will forget I'm in the house. I need a break from everything right now...
I'm not leaving AGN, I'm not giving up on anything. I just won't be here until the 20th or so, when classes start. Hopefully my g/f will not "need to hear my voice" long enough that I can get on the internet. I'm going to try and fix the most recent things on the Member Pages in the next 30 minutes, and then I'm not touching the internet for a few days. I've never felt like this before... nothing I do makes me feel better about my life. It's time to leave this house, I guess.
I feel closer to a few of the members on this board than I do to anyone I know IRL. I made this thread so that they know I'm not avoiding them. I'm probably going to get a few "Nobody cares" type posts and crap like that. Bite me hard. I'm out.
Anyway, sitting at this computer is no longer a pleasant experience for me. It means I have to sit close to the family room, which means I'm vulnerable to verbal attacks from my mother because I am close to her. We just went on a 3 day New Orleans vacation that she ruined because of a power trip. I'm about to leave for a 7-day trip to Ohio with my father. It's a trip I don't want to go on, but I have to because he'll be disappointed if I don't go. My girlfriend is pissed at me because I'll miss her first day of school as a senior, which I don't understand as I wouldn't have been able to go to school with her. Whatever. I'm spending all my time packing for college and praying that my mother will forget I'm in the house. I need a break from everything right now...
I'm not leaving AGN, I'm not giving up on anything. I just won't be here until the 20th or so, when classes start. Hopefully my g/f will not "need to hear my voice" long enough that I can get on the internet. I'm going to try and fix the most recent things on the Member Pages in the next 30 minutes, and then I'm not touching the internet for a few days. I've never felt like this before... nothing I do makes me feel better about my life. It's time to leave this house, I guess.
I feel closer to a few of the members on this board than I do to anyone I know IRL. I made this thread so that they know I'm not avoiding them. I'm probably going to get a few "Nobody cares" type posts and crap like that. Bite me hard. I'm out.