Goat
07-21-2003, 11:29 PM
I found some of my old poems today. I'm pretty sure I've posted most of them here before, but you get to read 'em again.
Miss Me
Would I be missed
If I was gone?
Would you grieve forever?
Or would you not cry for long?
Would I be missed
If I was no longer here
Would you even notice?
Would you even care?
If I suddenly vanished
Would you look for me?
Or would you not care?
And just leave me be
Would I be missed?
If death came to me
Gone forever
Maybe then you'll see
How much I mean
How much I yearn
How much I hurt
How my heart burns
For the love you possess
But wont give to me
Crying inside
Forever lonely
Nobody
Ive messed up some
Never know what to do
I'm all alone
Nobody to talk to
There's those I've betrayed
Those who've betrayed me
Nobody to turn to
Nobody to see
How much this hurts
Inside of me
Tearing me up
Making me cry
Nobody to care
Wanting to die
Nobody to hug
Nobody to hold
Nobody to joke
So very alone
Nobody at home
To turn to for help
Nobody to cry with
Nobody but myself
Nobody to trust
Nobody to chill
Nobody to laugh
Nobody that will
I sit and think
With my wrists all bloody
About who I have
Absolutely nobody!
Mom
All is silent
Then Mom hears a gun
She gets scared
To my room she runs
She just experienced
Her greatest fear
She falls to the floor
Eyes full of tears
I was her pride
I was her joy
She had always wanted
A little boy
Several times
Beaten bad
Trying to protect me
From my Dad
As I would watch
As I would cry
Seeing my Mom
Almost die
As I started
To grow up
I became filled with rage
My mind became corrupt
She never lost faith
But she did grow sad
I was becoming her worst nightmare
I was becoming my dad
Confused inside
Needing a guide
She tried to get
Through to me
Hoping I'd listen
Hoping I'd see
That I had a future
I had a family
Those I could trust
Those I could love
Those I could talk to
That wasn't enough
Growing depressed
Hurting myself
Scaring my Mom
Not letting her help
Not realizing
What this all did to her
They were supposed to be my problems
Not any of her concern
But now it's to late
I'm already gone
There's no way I can make up for this
But I love you mom
The Goat
He sits in a cage
Filled with rage
Hes been treated bad
Never really had
Noone to love
Noone to care
People just laugh
People just stare
They don't understand
He tries so hard
Never letting down guard
Mentally attacked
Emotionally attacked
He starts to cry
He doesn't know why
He just feels so alone
Miss Me
Would I be missed
If I was gone?
Would you grieve forever?
Or would you not cry for long?
Would I be missed
If I was no longer here
Would you even notice?
Would you even care?
If I suddenly vanished
Would you look for me?
Or would you not care?
And just leave me be
Would I be missed?
If death came to me
Gone forever
Maybe then you'll see
How much I mean
How much I yearn
How much I hurt
How my heart burns
For the love you possess
But wont give to me
Crying inside
Forever lonely
Nobody
Ive messed up some
Never know what to do
I'm all alone
Nobody to talk to
There's those I've betrayed
Those who've betrayed me
Nobody to turn to
Nobody to see
How much this hurts
Inside of me
Tearing me up
Making me cry
Nobody to care
Wanting to die
Nobody to hug
Nobody to hold
Nobody to joke
So very alone
Nobody at home
To turn to for help
Nobody to cry with
Nobody but myself
Nobody to trust
Nobody to chill
Nobody to laugh
Nobody that will
I sit and think
With my wrists all bloody
About who I have
Absolutely nobody!
Mom
All is silent
Then Mom hears a gun
She gets scared
To my room she runs
She just experienced
Her greatest fear
She falls to the floor
Eyes full of tears
I was her pride
I was her joy
She had always wanted
A little boy
Several times
Beaten bad
Trying to protect me
From my Dad
As I would watch
As I would cry
Seeing my Mom
Almost die
As I started
To grow up
I became filled with rage
My mind became corrupt
She never lost faith
But she did grow sad
I was becoming her worst nightmare
I was becoming my dad
Confused inside
Needing a guide
She tried to get
Through to me
Hoping I'd listen
Hoping I'd see
That I had a future
I had a family
Those I could trust
Those I could love
Those I could talk to
That wasn't enough
Growing depressed
Hurting myself
Scaring my Mom
Not letting her help
Not realizing
What this all did to her
They were supposed to be my problems
Not any of her concern
But now it's to late
I'm already gone
There's no way I can make up for this
But I love you mom
The Goat
He sits in a cage
Filled with rage
Hes been treated bad
Never really had
Noone to love
Noone to care
People just laugh
People just stare
They don't understand
He tries so hard
Never letting down guard
Mentally attacked
Emotionally attacked
He starts to cry
He doesn't know why
He just feels so alone