Rijuhn
08-13-2002, 04:02 PM
On Saturday I had my ear pulsing a bit as it was clogged with ear wax, I'm pretty sure it was. Well on Sunday it started to hurt with every beat of my heart, and yesterday at work I was thinking maybe I should call out sick but I endured and went to work.
Last night the pain got worst, and it happened more often and it was 5 times more painful. After putting in ear wax removal shit in my ear twice the pain got 30 times worse. I took some Tylenol and then I went to bed. From then it got 100 times worse.
I was screaming and crying. I felt like I was in living hell. The pain would recend for a few seconds and come back like a needle to the eye with the most violent of force. It had no pattern to the pain, so I couldn't get used to it. I was praying to God, seriously I was, for it to go away or at least be a constant pain (so I can get used to it) or lessen the pain so I could sleep.
Then I tried to bite my arm open so I can focus on the pain on my arm. Then I tried to cut my arm with my fingernails. Finally the pain stopped for a few minutes and I started to drift to sleep.
*BAM*
My brother and his uncordinated self banged into the wall and I jumped awake. I wanted to kill my brother but I got the mentality to let it go and try to sleep again. I dosed off again and then my brother knocked on my door and flung it open and in a hurried and worried voice he whispered like a snake, "Kevin. Kevin. Are you sleeping?!! KEVIN!!!??? HELLO?!"
I screamed him to fuck the fucking fuck fuckey fucking God dammit leave me alone. I will kill you AAAAHGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH HHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!! AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!HHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!1
I screamed so my dad would enter and get my brother away. My dad came in a got my brother away and he sat on the edge of my bed and stroke my hair and made sure I was alright. He was talking really nicely (is this a word?) and in a sweet tone. I finally got drowsey and my dad left, and told my brother to leave me the hell alone.
The pain continued for another 30 minutes and then I finally went to bed. I got a good amount of sleep and when I awoke this morning the pain was gone. I'm so very happy the pain is finally gone and I'm a bit more relaxed and my long needed plea for help to God has made me realize how great my life has been so I'm very thankful this day. God Bless you all.
I'm going to sign offline now and play Eternal Darkness. I'm soo happy right now I could cry. To any religious person I'll tell them that I felt I was sorta born again. That's how I feel right now.
Last night the pain got worst, and it happened more often and it was 5 times more painful. After putting in ear wax removal shit in my ear twice the pain got 30 times worse. I took some Tylenol and then I went to bed. From then it got 100 times worse.
I was screaming and crying. I felt like I was in living hell. The pain would recend for a few seconds and come back like a needle to the eye with the most violent of force. It had no pattern to the pain, so I couldn't get used to it. I was praying to God, seriously I was, for it to go away or at least be a constant pain (so I can get used to it) or lessen the pain so I could sleep.
Then I tried to bite my arm open so I can focus on the pain on my arm. Then I tried to cut my arm with my fingernails. Finally the pain stopped for a few minutes and I started to drift to sleep.
*BAM*
My brother and his uncordinated self banged into the wall and I jumped awake. I wanted to kill my brother but I got the mentality to let it go and try to sleep again. I dosed off again and then my brother knocked on my door and flung it open and in a hurried and worried voice he whispered like a snake, "Kevin. Kevin. Are you sleeping?!! KEVIN!!!??? HELLO?!"
I screamed him to fuck the fucking fuck fuckey fucking God dammit leave me alone. I will kill you AAAAHGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH HHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!! AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!HHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!1
I screamed so my dad would enter and get my brother away. My dad came in a got my brother away and he sat on the edge of my bed and stroke my hair and made sure I was alright. He was talking really nicely (is this a word?) and in a sweet tone. I finally got drowsey and my dad left, and told my brother to leave me the hell alone.
The pain continued for another 30 minutes and then I finally went to bed. I got a good amount of sleep and when I awoke this morning the pain was gone. I'm so very happy the pain is finally gone and I'm a bit more relaxed and my long needed plea for help to God has made me realize how great my life has been so I'm very thankful this day. God Bless you all.
I'm going to sign offline now and play Eternal Darkness. I'm soo happy right now I could cry. To any religious person I'll tell them that I felt I was sorta born again. That's how I feel right now.